I don't know if I'll ever get over them. I can't tell if I even want to.

Wow.

no expectations

at all for 2009
its weird
ps i definitely don't want a boyfriend either.

one plan

since i want to gain my experience and knowledge in dance, i would love to sign up for summerlin dance academy. but, as all dance classes are, it's mad expensive. my goal is to lose 15 pounds by christmas in order to allow myself to sign up for it. to prove that i'm at least using my gym membership that i pay 20 bucks a month for. because in order to really dance to my full potential, i must be in more control of my body. i can't have all this dead weight hanging around.
OK?
do it, ashley.
SERIOUSLY.
will do.
woooo.

flying solo

no more girlfriend, brittany left for georgia
no more boyfriend, i broke up with zach
:(


but i'm starting to feel empowered by my regained independence.
holla.

ur so gay

you know.. sometimes i really question if i'm a "tomboy" i feel like there's so many womanly traits that i lack... but there's two things in this last week that have really made me feel like a real woman-

- katy perry
she's just so cool.

- sex and the city.
the movie, i still haven't seen the show :(. i saw it today, twice! not by choice but after having seen it i'm not complaining that i did. it was just awesome.
sigh. i don't want to explain how that movie made me feel, there's a lot to it. maybe i'll discuss it with someone during a real conversation. i did talk about it a bit with my girls lola and brittany after seeing it with them. it felt nice, being able to talk to them. i'm sad michelle wasn't there. it felt like it had been such a long time since we really hung out and bonded.

but no, sex and the city was fantastic. i didn't know what to expect, but i sincerely loved it.

because inside we hope someone is listening...and can understand

why do you blog? why don't you just write in a journal?
1. i'm lazy
2. when i write i'll end up writing too much... nonsense.. memories not worth eternalizing. when i can type i can easily take out what's not needed (most of the time)
3.i utilize blogs as journals.. not so much diaries.. because i hope that people will read it. i hope that people read what i type and can hear my voice through them. that although brief, they understand and can sense whatever else is going through my mind during the moment that i make that entry. with the ability to easily change my thoughts i try to, just as easily, change myself. and often i want to say something to another, but i feel like i can't, so i just tell a stupid journal. so, i'm secretly hoping that someone is eavesdropping on me and this blog.