My birthday...

...is in three days.

:)

there's a difference

Do you know that feeling? When you've wanted something so badly for so long, and you finally get it? Not just that, it can't just be that. You finally get it, and it's exactly how you imagined it to be [and possibly more], making that something all the more incredible!
That feeling is so damn hard to get.
For one, much too often whether you knew what to expect or not, the outcome is a disappointment. And for another, sometimes you might want something but have no idea what to expect from it the first place… so whether the outcome is good or bad, the feeling you get from it is not nearly as great as this feeling that I'm talking about.
There have only been two moments in my life so far that I can say have given me this feeling; one of them was today. I was so unbelievably happy today, haha...I'm crazy.
You should have been there.

I don't really read these things.

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

"...You can't ignore your responsibilities, even if you prefer temporary solitude..."

Aw, damn it. I told you.

No, nothing. Nevermind. Forget it all! Can I start new? Completely fresh this time. Fuck. I wish people could read my mind. There's all these mixed feelings flowing through my veins and I want to drain it all out. I really feel like my system is polluted and I'm unable to function properly. It is so strange and this probably sounds ridiculous.

Take me to the mountains.


I wish I could read other people's minds, I spend too much time trying to.
Fuck.


Haha... wish I could fly too, can't forget about that.

and all the while i'm typing this, the only thing going through my head is "x-men. x-men"


more time to myself, that's what I need right now. It's impossible.

Hmm.

I just don't know lately... about...people.. places..things...who...what.. when...where... and, ESPECIALLY, why....





I am happy though. There's been tons of things that might have or would usually have brought my mood down severely, but so far this 2007 has been very good to me. Continue to doubt me, go ahead. That'll just make me want to prove to you even more that this year will be the best I've ever had.